Truth coming out

"I'd hate to love you again. You ruined it, and everything around me. I wished I could be cold, and so am I. I hate it. I wish I could be drunk, but I'm alone. My daddy said it isn't healthy to drink sadness. But I'm not sad, you know. I'm just angry, and I think my heart might be dead at this point. And that's it. That is life, proving that nothing can beat our expectations. I wish I could change who I am. So I wouldn't feel so empty. So I wouldn't miss so hard my faith in love. In any kind of it. I wish I could find something where I could put any hope."