Glitter in my eyes

I'm here again, and I have lots to say

I think I need a girlfriend

Or that I'm going insane

I had a bunch of drinks

I had a bunch of pills

I miss my old medication

I probably need to chill

I know I had enough

But still, I'm trying hard

I wanna write my songs

Like idolized stars

Within four white walls

A woman told me once

Print out the pics of artists

So you'll get thin enough

And I need to be pretty

And I hate being seen

I wanna them all to notice

What I have in me

But then again it's useless

Because if someone knew

About the thoughts I hide

I would end up in jail

And I can't tell you why

I misbehave like I should

But I'm not winning it

I don't have a home to go back to

I have a bed to sleep

So I close my fucking eyes

And dream like I'm an addict

Whatever world it's that

I think I'm living at it

My mouth is overflowing

The race is cinnamon spice

I swallow every piece

I want to commit crimes

I wish that it had helped me

But I'm still alone

No one will touch my body

I cannot hear a sound

I watch myself dry

I watch myself drown

I have no wins to share

This is all that I own

I pray for it to stop

I pray a pretty image on my mirror

I know I'm not moving around

I have no more excuses

I'm just to tired to try

Anything at all