Smoky Shower

How many showers have you skept, huh?
How many hours have you spent,
Wasting money
And life
Who do you think you're fooling?
Who do you think you're hurting?
Stealing daisies from her garden,
Throwing yourself
In the garbage
Is this a scream for help,
A suicide attempt
Or maybe a desperate cry
For feeling alive?
Helpless,
Useless
And self-centered
Who are you, really?
Who do you mean to be?
Do you even wish to be alive,
Still?