Soco

Ninguém mais te suporta

Só eu abro a boca

Porque o soco vem

E eu não tô com medo

Você fechou os olhos

Bem arregalados

Tapou os ouvidos

Com a própria voz

Quebrou milhões de copos

Queimou panelas

Jogou os talheres no lixo

E ela disse: "ele é assim"

Eu me perguntei

Se ela sabia

Se era novidade,

Acho que era o plano

Ela foi criada ouvindo

"Ele é assim"

Você riu de mim

Zombou, sentiu

O prazer de olhar alguém

De cima a baixo

De cima do palco

Eu despistei,

Tranquei a porta

Comprei um balde

Dormi com uma faca

Debaixo do travesseiro 

"Perdoa ele, não foi por mal"

E não foi isso que me consolou.

Eu tive medo

Sonhei contigo

Me quebrando numa quina

Tive medo por ela

Tive pelo meu filho

Arrumei uma mochila

Com tudo que eu tinha

E cinquenta reais.

Sua filha foge

Quando você abre a boca

Eu nem abro a minha,

Ela já sabe.

Eu vou dormir com ódio

Escorrendo por entre os dedos.

Ensaio a tua morte,

Soco, assassinato,

O que for necessário.

Quando eu desfiz minha mala

Gastei o dinheiro e o medo,

E se você pensar

Em se meter comigo,

Te derrubo antes

De você piscar.

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Eu chamo teu nome 

Afogada em esperança

Eu tentei matá-la sufocada

Amarrei pesos aos tornozelos 

Ela se tornou água.

Pensei que era chama,

Queimando teus restos;

As fotos e os traços

O que coube nos bolsos.

Mas assim que tentei apagá-la,

Ela se tornou vento.

Eu chamo teu nome

De corpo estirado

Não te espero, não canto

Não deixo convites.

Sempre foi solitário

Sonhar ao teu lado,

Enquanto ela criava raízes

Sob meus pés.

Eu cortei e sequei

No sol de três da tarde

Os brotos e os galhos

Tentei engoli-los,

Mas tossi de volta.

Pensei, talvez o mofo

Me ajude a levá-los embora.

E agora,

Eu assisto enxarcada,

Passiva e calada,

E me pergunto

Como foi que começou o fogo.

Glass Dagger [♪]

I made myself a scar

Because I had a wound,

And it was painful —

A stab in the center of my chest,

Ugly, dirty, infected.

I tried to open it,

Sort the shards out,

Clean myself inside.

I picked up my skin

Like it was spikes of a porcupine

Or horns of a cactus —

Something that

Was not supposed to be there.

I guess I'm not a plant, nor an animal,

But my whole existence feels

Like a mistake,

Like I'm not supposed to be here.

I tried to paint myself —

The pain among the art,

Over my vesture.

I made a gesture

To my inner shadow

To let them know that I'm aware.

I made myself a wound,

And it was painful,

But the wound I had before

Was aching further.

So I had to move my claws

And do something about it.

Vivid Raptile [adapted] ♪

I have to lower my blood pressure so I can stand you inside my house

Inside my walls, under my sheets

Inside my clothes,

And thoughts

Like a parasite,

The way you used to call me

And I still believe it

But then again, 

I have no other source.

I have to pour down one of my drinks

Swallow

With my clogged throat,

And still try to empathize;

While holding my knife

Close to my hips

Against my chest

As if I were trying to tear myself apart

From the inside

I guess my heart isn't as spiky

As my skin,

And it shows

From my voice tone

From the way I move

For the way I breathe

Trying not to steal your air

Suffocating beneath you

Buried six feet

Under concrete;

I guess I never realized

The cage I live in is self made 

I made it all out of walls

So I could not escape 

'Cause I'm a snake

And who knows who I may bite

Once I manage to get out.

(Chorus:

I have been digging myself

To keep you alive

I have been crushing my toes 

So that you could walk

I have been talking myself

Outside of each fight

I did it all for you, to watch you thrive)

I try to choke

I try to hibernate

Simulate deaths

Virtual Reality trips

I try not to be awake

Or aware that you're a real person

While I silently point all of my fingers at you

And pray to god that you stay being my devil

Otherwise I would have to blame myself

And I'm barely alive

Or maybe I'm just saying that

Because you freak me out

And I don't want your rage to reach mine

(Chorus: 

I know if feels wrong

But I watch you try

From an outside view

Think I'm not alive

I've done it all for you

To see you smile

And I can't help you

More than I have done so far)

I stuff my mouth with pills

Hope it works fast

Set myself on fire

Freeze to an ice stone

It's been long since I've been around

Since I've been out of sight

But that's the only thing

That's keeping me alive.

(Chorus: 

I have nothing left

For you to tear apart

I gave you all I had

This is the last time

I put my heart on you

Hoping that you'd shine

But I have fallen now

Leave candles at my shrine)

Leave The Party ♪

I have been spending my whole life

Trying to be good enough

I slit my wrists I drank too much

But I was not even there

You said you two were going out and I was not invited

I smoked a pack of cigarettes trying to forget about it

(Chorus)

Uuuh when will you realize

That I've been here all the time

I've been alone by your side

Uuuh I think now you've realized,

That I'm still sitting on my own

But now I want to leave the party

I've tried to play all of your games

You hurt me, I never complained

I hurt you back, was it okay?

That's what you two used to teach me.

I only wanted to be friends

But you both forgot about me

I tried to hurt myself and laugh

Now I want to forget about it

(Chorus)

Uuuuh and I just want to leave the party

Uuuuh oh I just want to leave this party

Uuuh I want to forget about you

Uuuuh Mom, can I please just leave the party?

Air

Your health is leaking.

I place my hands together, 

Try to hold it,

While it escapes from me

Like a breeze on butterfly wings.

I think of you,

I do my best to skip some thoughts,

I have to silence myself 

So I can be enough;

So I can do all I have to do.

I dig my feet on the ground:

Roots to keep me from falling,

Your breeze is getting stronger

And I have been greeted 

By previous hurricanes.

I have to nail down the drawers

So they stay in place,

Time is a blessing that evades me –

I hope my shelter stays still,

And I pray for your breath 

To keep coming.

I try to indulge myself,

Pull me from the cage.

I have to create time gaps,

So I can swallow it all.

It tastes bitter,

But I grew used to it.

My mind comes in waves

And so does your weather,

I'm trying my best to guess it;

But I'm not a meteorologist.