Mermaid Blue

Did I sent for you?

Did you hear my mermaid's

Tearing chant

And felt impilled to dive

Into me

And die drowned in my charmed arms?

I feel you to the bones

Like a ghost perpassing me

Not with a regular shivering

But instead parasiting my nerves

Your voice, your memory

Relies on me,

Takes habitat, assaults my air

My cells fell pale, anemic

All have is yours, should be yours

I have no further use for myself

I'm but the burning cold among my guts

That tie me like a deep dark ocean

And this is all that ever ever made sense

I think you heard my calling

I pray to death you did

But either way

I don't think I might be leaving

I think I am the blue

Spot

She pledges on her self destructive sunday drama

I play deafh

While nurturing fantasies of cutting my wrists

Or taking a type of shots

That not quite Tekilla

But not much less as alchoholic

I hope to god that you don't read this garbage

'Cause I feel like writing several pieces

This is the first lightning power

That I testimony in years

I want this

Maybe this is the reason why I lasted so long in that hell hole

I meant to worth something

Once in a lifetime

But to be honest

I think you should run

If you're reading this,

You should run, run

As fast as you can

'Cause everything I touch

Turns into ruins

And I'm the proof

Because I still touch myself

I tried to stop

me and my evil fingers

But everytime I lose this battle

It gets darker

And I am trying, trying,

Really, trying

So hard not to be a waste

Not to be this weight on someone else's

Existence

I really hope

For your own sake

That you find your path

And that that's not me

Because I don't even know where I am