Quietude

I feel so sad
I need to sleep
The more I have
The more I need
If I keep going
I'll die soon
I know I am just talking to the moon
I need to run away
But the more I run
The less I breathe
And then I feel so sick
I am so tired of choking anyway
I need someone to hold me to calm down
I said today
Sometimes I fantasize
I'm drowning
And dieing
It's such a painful way to die
That's why I love it
Baby, I am so sad
I'm going down
I don't even have a floor
To stop my fall
My hands, they scream for me
I throw them in the air
But no one's there
And then
I feel like I'm about to die
And everyone gets quiet
The whole world
This silence
Of speaking to you
It kills everything around me
It hurts.