Still Apologies

I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry friend,

But I had 

To keep myself alive

I'm sorry Fred,

I'm sorry Matt,

But I had

To keep myself alive

I'm sorry Pedro

Y Miguel,

But I had

To keep myself alive

I'm sorry Peter

And 

I'm sorry Dad,

I'm really sorry, but I had

To do my best

To keep myself alive

I feel like I abandoned 

My whole crew 

I'm sorry to all my friends from school

But I knew

I had

To keep myself alive

I'm sorry all the boyfriends

That I broke up with

And the way I blocked you

So that I could sleep

But I swear I had

To keep myself alive

I am so so sorry

For all that I did

For my absence and promises 

For making you believe in me

I'm sorry if I caused you any pain

But I would, and will do it again

And I am not ashamed

Because I did it

So that I could live,

And none of you

Would have helped me

Doing that.