Oral Fixation

I survive
Another panic attack
Just to see
The shining teeth
Of laughing guests
I eat food
I smile to
Them
And I feel
So fucking comfortable
That they're all around me
Taking care of me
Making me real again
I have some sort
Of oral fixation
Have a few beers
And it's alright
Wish for a cigarette
And a blowjob
But content myself with food
And try for lips,
To fail foward.
I'm exhausted
And come up with a war
Just to stay alive
Stay here
No death, no fall, no fear
Stay here
Happiness doesn't last
So long.